Teaching full time this year has been quite the learning
experience for me. It has certainly limited how many posts I’ve been able to
manage, filling my writing time instead with lesson plans, curriculum mapping,
etc.
And being in a small school, I’ve seen things. Yes. Yes, I
have. Anything from kids tying their shoes together and attempting to run down
the hall, to having taller kids try and drop glue in shorter kids’ hair. Yes. I
said that. There were times when it felt like Kindergarten Cop for sure, but
overall, it’s been a blast.
Over the next few weeks I hope to share with you the musings
of an art teacher. In a sense, it’s a break from my seven years of science and
faith blogging, but not really because at the very heart of science is
observation.
And that’s what I hope to share with you. My observations. So let’s
dive in.
Not too long ago I bought 25 glue bottles for our yarn art
and quilled art projects. By chance, we added a new student in our largest
class to make the count 26. When I went to the store to get another glue
bottle, they only had a larger size. I sighed.
You see I have three kids of my own and I know how this
works. Everyone wants the bigger thing…no matter what it is. If there’s a
bigger brownie, we’ll arm wrestle for it (though who can blame you for that!),
if there’s a bigger car we want it. Bigger is better, right?
So I stood in the crafts aisle, staring down that glue bottle.
"You won't win," I said.
I picked it up and tracked down a store clerk, begging her to find out if there were smaller glue bottles anywhere. Nope. None. Nada.
I picked it up and tracked down a store clerk, begging her to find out if there were smaller glue bottles anywhere. Nope. None. Nada.
Really? How much money to I want to waste on gas going to another store just
for a smaller bottle? I sighed again…
“Unfair!” one child cried as another grabbed the bottle.
Others complained, “Why does he get to use the bigger bottle?”
Later as I put the glue away, I wondered why it is that we
always want the bigger thing. What is it that drives us to want more?
I talked to several people about it, just trying to be
philosophical, and they all looked at me like I was high on some of that legal Colorado stuff...
But I’m not. Those very things that we wish for, our deep
sometimes unknown desires, speak volumes about who we are and what we need.
Our constant need for bigger and better is an indication
that we are not happy with the way things are. We strive for more. But in most
cases, it speaks to something internal of which we may not be aware. After
speaking with many others, digging through psychology books, and asking
questions, the answer most prevalent is that we are not seeking the physical as
much as we are seeking something internal.
Many posts ago I wrote about the hole in our hearts and why
it is there. My supposition has not changed. There is a longing, a deep
unfulfilled longing that no matter how much we love something or someone seems
insatiable.
It’s an eternal longing, it’s a need for God’s love. Whether
we recognize it as that…well, that’s up to us.
So who gets the bigger glue bottle in art class? Now we pull
a name out of a hat and that winner gets to use it for the class. The lucky
student is filled with pride as they walk back to their table with that
never-gonna-use-it-all bottle, but they are happy for a short time.
And the
added blessing that I’ve seen happen? Most times they use it for a bit then
decide to share it with a classmate…proving once again that God’s love can
never be hoarded. It needs to be shared.